Dearest Readers, I had assumed it would be at least half a year before I dolled out another ‘one free roast’ of me. And yet, here we are. Yes, this means that some of you who have been hoarding them up have a whole two free roasts in your back pocket. I know you’re saving those for a rainy day, Alexander. 

How have we gotten here? 

I think one of my worst habits is that I can sometimes live the majority of my time ‘from the neck up’ or in a very distanced, intellectualized point of view. And I have a reputation among my social circle for being ‘laser guided’ with my commentary. But, that sometimes means that I forget to turn that lens onto very, very obvious things. Every once in a while, I get caught with my metaphorical pants down. 

I was having a very interesting discussion regarding social media and how to use it with a much more experienced magician. And they commented that it seemed odd that they had not seen me previously in Chaos Magic circles. “Chaos Magic?”, I said—with my entire posting series about different paradigms available from pop culture sources. “Why would I be in Chaos Magic Circles?” I asked, with my many public blog entries about the illusion of tradition and ‘ancient’ histories in our current culture of magic as well as within common concept of demons and Christianity. 

“That just doesn’t make any sense. You really think I’d belong in the Chaos Magic community?” I asked, fully aware of the entries I’ve written about plush familiars and mobile ita bag shrines. 

While I know for a fact that I am a total delight, I have to imagine that some of these moments of total self-blindness must get old for some of my contemporaries. I will have you dear readers know that I even have a degree. They’ll just give those out to Chaos Magicians these days, apparently. 

Look, sometimes you’re the last one to find out. And, yes, sometimes it is that obvious to everyone but you. But, I think it’s easier to find the humor in it than be totally emotionally destroyed by embarrassment. 

Where do we go from here? 

Well, I’m certainly not going to do anything differently around here. I’m still adamantly unserious. And I suppose that comes with the territory. I suppose I had some bias against the label, because I always imagined Chaos Magicians as…well…like the internet trolls of the occult community. At the same time, I am very well aware of the fact that all communities have their fair share of total assholes. You can’t get away from that. 

But, I do think that the occult community especially needs its fools. It very much needs people who point out what needs pointing out—especially in the guise of a clown. 

At the same time, I wouldn’t ever change myself just because I didn’t like a label. So here is the question, Dear Readers, do you agree with the summation of me as a Chaos Magician? And what are the implications?